What the HELL did I do?

“stop posting those online, I never said yes, so..”

Ok then, what the hell, wasting all my time but never regretted it. I seriously need to reconsider, I feel that both of our character cannot fit at all, we seem to be like on two extreme ends, one on the North Pole, and the other on the South Pole. Of all, why did I go for you? You shaped my way of life I guess, but it all seems wrong. The heart, the relationship, the time, the effort. Maybe I shouldn’t have let it go in the first place and regret it in the end. It’s all too late.

what the hell did I do? I just deleted TWO mushy messages that might be :
1) misinterpreted
2) misunderstood
3) miscommunicated

sheesh... I have a mixed feeling of irritation and anger now....

1st - There wasn't ANY relationship other then that which used to be - brothers
2nd - I warned you explicitly that the outcome is highly unfavorable, you made the decision to persue it.
3rd - You are right, our characters are worlds apart, and getting more and more different by the day... but difference is what make THE difference in every "relationship"...

if you can't stand me, you aren't strong enough for that portion...


think through what you posted on my blog, and look at it from MY perspective. how would i feel?

The AJ community has a vast population, many who are more capable, smarter, better looking, more sensitive, more caring, then me...

why on earth must you set you eyes on a failure, an ingrate, an imbecile, an insensitive wretch like me?
.... it would only break your heart.....

I have failed enough people, myself, and God. I'm a failure.

are you interested now? ARE YOU WILLING TO WAIT FOR THE FAILURE?????



anybody in the right mind will say no.






James told me this, which set me mind into "warped perspective" mode again.
God creates smart people to be lazy, so that their results can be balanced of with the stupid people who work hard.

seems so true huh...